Every year on this day, I remember it as the day my life would forever change. I often wonder exactly what that day was like for you emotionally. You had only given birth to me 12 days prior and now you would never have the opportunity to actually mother your baby girl.
The saying “it gets better with time” is not necessarily true. It’s been 45 years and growing up motherless has not gotten any easier over the years. Every season in life has brought its unique challenges. I have just learned to manage the void.
Today, in the midst of an emotional day of an emotional filled Mother’s Day week…I choose to be thankful.
I’m thankful for the foundation you set for me.
I’m thankful for the family I was born into.
I’m thankful you had a passionate marriage with dad.
I’m thankful I had 2 years with dad before he was reunited with you.
I’m thankful I was raised by my immediate family.
I’m thankful that when I don’t know what to do next, I feel your guidance.
I’m thankful that I know the woman I have become is much of who you were.
I’m thankful that though this has been the deepest void in my life, I have been able to support other girls who have become motherless.
I’m thankful for a God who wraps me in His arms when I feel overwhelmed by the emptiness of not having you.
I’m thankful for the 12 days I had with you, though I don’t remember them, it was a gift.